Monday, February 13, 2012

6 months have gone by...

February 10th, my little girl turned 6 months old. I can't even believe how fast these months have flown by. She is now 25 inches long and weighs 16 pounds and 9 ounces. She is now eating baby food, sitting up completely on her own, crawling, and pulling herself up onto furniture, getting into things she shouldn't and she also loves to jump. :) Her favorite food is paper. :P
These are her 6 month pictures taken by the lovely Julianne Rensink. Thanks to her and her husband we have gorgeous pictures of our little girl.

That tongue is ALWAYS out. 

Looking a little ornery...

Isn't she beautiful!

Tongue again...

This one is my favorite

Another favorite

Isn't amazing how fast they grow? I love my little girl and her fun personality. I can't wait to see what she will become!


A beginning of a journey.

217.8 pounds. WAY TO MUCH! Yes. I am publishing my current weight in a blog. Why you may ask? If I publish it, it holds me accountable.

Today, I decided I am going to start a new journey. Weight loss. I don't know how many times I have started this. Too many times to count. The last full side view I had in the mirror at my parents house I guess would be the motivator. I actually cringed when I saw myself. Rolls, pudge, muffin top in the front (mostly from having a baby and a belly that won't even TRY to go back), completely disgusting. My self esteem has plummeted down since having Lydia. I feel like my self image is just horrible. I hate how I look. I feel tired all the time.

Now, my goal isn't to be skinny. I have no desire really to be skinny. I want to be small enough were I feel confident in my skin. I want to feel confident enough that I don't have to worry about if my belly is hanging over the front of my pants or not. I want to feel confident enough to feel that I don't have to wear a cami that is a size too small underneath my clothes to hold my gut in.  That is where I want to be.

Honestly, I fee like that size would be around a size 10 or a size 12. Goal weight around 50 pounds putting me around 170. That is still technically "overweight" for my height, but if I can get there, I can decide if I want to loose more or not. The goal is to loose around two pounds a week. The goal is to eat less, eat regularly, and drink lots of water and to count calories. But, I am not really sure how to count calories. Do I need a scale for meat or anything?

I also want to reward myself for every 10 pounds I loose. Not sure what that is exactly yet.  Here are some "before" pictures. I am praying the "after" ones are way better. I just die looking at these pictures. Marcus says I am beautiful and sexy, but honestly I don't see it. I am glad he does.

Anyway, there it is. It is official.


Thursday, February 2, 2012

I can't even believe it!

My little girl, my darling little girl will be 6 months old a week from today. Where did the time go?! Oh, and on top of that SHE IS ALREADY CRAWLING! Too Soon!!! Our dear friends, Brenden and Julianne Rensink took her 6 month pictures last week. She was such a cute little bug! This picture is one of MANY wonderful pictures. I don't even know which one to choose for her 8x10 for the living room. Oh, the choices.

There has been some work changes in this household. I am now substitute teaching at least two times a week for the towns school district. I really like it. I enjoy getting out of the house a few times a week and helping out and hanging with the kiddos. I am even debating on going back to school and getting my teaching certificate. Prayers are welcome for that big decision. Geesh... I always seem to be making those.

Oh, in good news, on January 24th, we finally got our Pt Cruiser back! OH, my gosh I can't even tell you how excited we are to have our car back.

Marcus is in full swing with his band program. The band will be heading to Kansas City this coming may to compete at Worlds Of Fun! They are going to look super sharp in their new band polos the school bought for the program. May is going to be nuts! This band trip, graduation, Kaylin's bridal party shindig, and her wedding. Then a week later I believe Marcus and I are going to be helping at a band camp. Oh the business never ends.

Well that's a short wrap up on what's going on in our lives. I'll try to get back to updating this more. I have way more pictures but I just don't feel like posting them. They are all on Facebook if you are friends with me on there.

Anyway, God Bless.