Wednesday, December 7, 2011

"Live Life with... Gratitude"

Why is that so hard for people to do? Live Life with Gratitude? Sister Isernhagen from church gave me a, I guess, wood thingy? That says that statement on it. I have been thinking about it a lot. It sits on the table that our TV sits on, so I see it just as much as I watch TV. So... often. :)
I have notice I have complained a lot.

I hate this house
I hate living so far away from my family
I hate being far away from my friends
I hate being poor, like really poor.
I hate how far I have to drive to church.
I hate my body.
I hate, I hate, I hate.

I really need to turn my attitude around. And it has been a struggle. I notice how much I complain to my mom, my husband, and even just people around here. Not gonna lie, I still have a hard time with some of those things, but this shouldn't be the attitude I should be having. God has blessed me with so much. Even though I don't particularly care for the house, a family went out of their way, took their house off of the market so we could rent it when we needed a house and fast. And with when it comes too living so far away from my family, it is not even a day's drive. I could go in the morning and still spend most of the day with them. I guess the draw back is the gas to get there and back, yet they help a lot with that. I miss my friends. I have made some friends here, but not like what I had in Lincoln. I haven't made a lot of friends my age, and if I did, they live at least an hour away, which is too far of a drive to go to just "hang out." It does seem to me that we are really struggling financially. We are super poor. Yet I look around, we have TV, we each have a cell phone, we have furniture, I guess I have a bad attitude. Yet, this attitude keeps coming back. I am so down in the dumps about it. I swear I am just running around in circles about this. I mean, I find these blessings, but I see what a toll they are on us. We want to get rid of TV because of the outrageous bill, but we can't get out of it without paying hundreds of dollars in termination fees. We have looked at changing our cell phones, but we are stuck in a stupid contract. Yes, we have these so called "blessings" but they are also weighing us down. We are trying to make better financial decisions, but we are just stuck.

I started writing this blog to try to change my perspective. To make my self see blessings and such. It is just not working this time I guess. So, sorry for the negative post. I usually try to stay positive.

Live Life with Gratitude.

You know, there will always things I will be grateful for. I am grateful for my amazing, hardworking husband, my beautiful little girl, my pets, my family, the friends I do have, and for the church.

I am not sure where to go from there. I guess I will just leave with this.

I am trying to Live Life with Gratitude. I guess some days are just harder than others.

Karin Marie

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